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Month: November, 2016

Thank You

November 23, 2016

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1.I may not show it as often as you would like me to, but I really do appreciate all that you have done and continue to still do for me. Though your ways of showing your care might be unorthodox, I do recognize it. I am thankful to have such a wonderful, strong, and kind-hearted person like you in my life. Your love goes unmatched, and I could never trade a life being anybody else but yours. I love you!

2.So, we don’t always get along – everyone knows this. We bump heads like two bulls fighting. Our differences limit our peace together, but I’m glad we are able to spend quality time through little moments that mean a whole lot to me. I enjoy our moments of silence and on-the-floor laughters. Yes, we’re not always on the same page, but I know you love me, and I hope you know how much I do love and respect you. Your hard work and support do not go unnoticed. I love you!

3.I doubt you a lot. I don’t always believe you. And I don’t always acknowledge some of the things you say and do.. just because the majority of the time I think I know you can do and become better in situations that challenge you. These are all crappy, but one thing about you that I do love is that I can trust you with pretty much anything. Trust does not come easy nowadays, and I thank God for blessing me with someone I can always count on regardless of any circumstances. I love you & I love us!

4.I can’t help but to smile and laugh when I think about you and where we are now. I can’t help but to be excited for what I like to say the “Beautiful Comeback.” I can’t help but to just, be in awe. I am so glad you are back in my life. And I hope you’re as glad and excited as I am for me to be back in yours, because it has been a while my “dear dear friend.” Thank you for not giving up on yourself, because I really can’t imagine a life without you. So, thank you for returning back into my life at a time where a light like yours was most needed in my life. You make me feel like “I’m back,” and I can’t tell you how much that means to me. I missed you. I missed us. And I’ve never really said it, but know that I absolutely love you.

Oh, and thank you for keeping up with me through all these erratic ups & downs. I know it has been quite difficult and confusing between the two of us, but know that I could only be doing this with you & no one else. So, thank you for keeping up with my shit. As you already know, I’ll be keeping up with yours too. Love you!

5.I am thankful for you. Thankful that you opened my eyes at the most inconvenient of times; thankful that you momentarily defeated me. I am thankful that you made my life a huge giant question mark. You terrified me, but I overcame the obstacles you threw. You were a kryptonite – you made me weak. You were also the thing to strengthen me; you helped me realize that I could and should never settle for practicality. I could and should never compromise with myself. So thank you. Thank you for showing me lust, love, anger, and hope. Thank you for forcing me to feel what I was hiding for years. Thank you. Thank you.

6.Thank you for always being there for me. I know in the past years I wasn’t always there for you when you needed me, but I’m glad I was able to explain myself as to why I couldn’t. I really do appreciate you. I’m thankful to know someone that knows everything about me. You’re always very accepting of my decisions and everything that I do, I honestly can’t thank you enough for it. Hoping we’ll be in each other’s lives for a very very long time!

7.Where do I even begin. I just want to say how much of an impact you have made in my life, first of all. We have so many shared stories, so many beautiful memories, and so many unforgettable moments. You have given me a thing I still have yet been able to articulate and explain – it’s all the good and all the bad that have brought me here today. You really were something special. We had a bond that was unlike anything else, and it is something that cannot be replaced, even if I wanted to. Your humor uplifts me, your kindness inspires me, your compassion moves me. I hope you continue being the person I learned to adore and love. I wish you the happiness I failed to provide, the support I couldn’t give, the trust you couldn’t find. I wish you the things you weren’t able to grasp in the past years, so from here I say to you, how thankful I am for welcoming me into your life and allowing me to experience a love I wanted to love. Thank you, for all the best and the worst, the beautiful and the ugly, the firsts and the last. My PB, you will forever be a part of me. How lucky I am to have known somebody that was so hard to say goodbye to.

Haiku: Confession

November 17, 2016

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You are all I see

You are all I think about

You are all I want.

Last Friday

November 10, 2016

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I cried for you

in the arms of a man

that could never understand

exactly why I would.

-RachelRundengan

Unanswered

November 10, 2016

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I loved you

in all the ways

you should have loved me too.

-RachelRundengan

Unwelcomed Reminder

September 27, 2016

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Some days are good,

some days are better.

But there is often that one day,

that reminds us,
of all the bad and the worse

that took us here today.

And that day,

that day is the worst.

-RachelRundengan